So, I did something really stupid tonight. I watched the video that my cousin put together for Brittons funeral. She did an amazing job. I haven't watched this video in 9 months. Mostly because I cant make it through without crying like a baby. Second, because I cant tell if they are sad tears or realizing that I am going to be okay tears. I miss Britton so much. I know that I say that a lot on here but I feel like this is the only way that I can say it. Britton meant so much to me. He was a huge part of my life and it is so hard for me to think that I am going to be okay without him. I don't want to be okay without him. I almost don't want to move on without him but I know that is what I need to do. Britton is looking down on me and I know that he doesn't want me to be sad. He wants to look down and see that I am doing okay. I will never forget my little man. I will never forget his smile and his laugh. I will never forget him. I am so grateful that I get to see this video and remember all of the fun times that Britton had in his life. I know that I will cry, but that is okay because I know that I am getting through this.